| Location | Bradford |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 09/10/2009 |
| Date of Death | 09/10/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,360 since 16/10/2009 |
| Creator |
On the 2ND of may 2009 I found out I was pregnant, we were so excited.
On the 12Th August 2009 we found out we were having a little girl we were over the moon, my mum came
to the scan with us & as soon as she looked her on the screen she said we've got a little Millie, So
we decided to call her Millie Mae.
I felt her kicking at 16 weeks & she was very active morning noon & night, I loved it.
On the 7Th October 2009 we went to our 28 week antenatal with the midwife
I told the midwife Millie Mae hasn't been moving as much the last week but I put it down to been
been quite busy, She checked for Millie Mae's heartbeat but couldn't find it, She said she would
send me to the hospital for a scan.
On the way to the hospital in the car we didn't say a word,
We got to the hospital & they checked for the heartbeat again, they couldn't find it, So they rushed
us in for a scan & our worst nightmare was confirmed, No heartbeat, They showed us her on the screen
& said her heart had stopped & she had fluid on her lungs.
I felt numb & in shock, They took us to a quiet room & I just remember people coming & going taking
blood test & talking to us, but it wasn't sinking in.
Walked out of hospital brook down in tears.
I had to go back the next day (8Th october 2009) to take a tablet to induce labour, They sent me
home said the tablet would take 48 hours to work, I was booked in for 10Th October 2009.
9Th october 2009 woke up had a bit of stomach cramp put it down to the tablet, Hospital said I might
get a bit of stomach cramp.
Still had stomach cramp at tea time took some paracetamol went to sleep, Woke up about 8:15pm the
pain had got worse but nothing unbearable.
Tops of my legs hurts had to kneel down, Peter started panicking, I wouldn't let him ring the
hospital because I thought the pain wasn't that bad to be labour pains.
Mum & sisters come up peter rang hospital said to take me straight in, The pain were every 2
minutes.
Got to hospital sat on bed waters broke, Millie Mae Connell was born 9Th october 2009 at 8:51pm, 2lb
4oz, 28 week 3 days, Born sleeping, She was perfect.
Peter held her first, He couldn't believe how beautiful & perfect she was, Then I held her, I was
still in shock, Then my mum & sisters came in & had a hold.
Had to stay in hospital over night, Went home next day feeling empty & alone even tho I had my
Husband & family with me.
I'll never forget what one of the midwife's said to me,
she said "GOD MUST OF THOUGT MILLIE MAE WAS TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD"
Millie Mae Connell
9th October 2009
Born Asleep
Always Loved
Never Forgotten
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Thank You
Thank You to everyone who have left tributes & lit candles for Millie Mae, It means a lot to us,
I don't come on here that much at the moment as it is too painful,
It would have been my due date on the 28th December so I'm not really up to it at the moment.
But we do really appreciate it.
Thank You. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
angel millie mae
beautiful little baby not yet ready to be born, thinking of all the fun that mummy and daddy have instore, but god spoke and ask her to come with him, saying this world is not a place for ANGELS. come with me oh precious 1, and live amongst the special and beautiful people that no-one forgets. millie mae left this world so innocent and pure, god welcomed her with a open heart, you now play free, with no hurt, no pain, untill we 1 day we all meet again! love you always auntie emma xxx
Its Mummy birthday today, but haven't felt like doing anything, all I keep thinking is that I would of been nearly 31 weeks pregnant with you my beautiful baby girl, I love you soooo much. Its your funeral next week not looking forward to it at all. miss you more & more every day. xxxxxx
I am so sorry
Rebecca
There just arn't words to describe what it is like to be told that your baby has died.I remember both times when my daughters were pronounced dead like it happened yesterday and it is world endingly devastating.
My identical twin angels died within a month of each other (one stillborn, the other died aged 1 month)and were both born at the BRI.
I hope Julie Key and the rest of the maternity bereavement team at the BRI are looking after you as exceptionally as they did for me and other parents in our position.
My sweethearts are also at the Snowdrop Garden and I think it is such a pretty place. I know that they are not alone there - there are tragically so many other beautiful angels there too.
I am very sorry to hear about your loss and believe me when I say, I know exactly how you feel. Not many people can honestly say that to you and mean it.
Be very, very gentle with yourself and I hope that your days become warmer and brighter.
Catherine x
what makes a mother ??
WHAT MAKES A MOTHER?
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.
"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"
"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."
"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.
"I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile,
With all the other children and say...
'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quick,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'
"So you see my dear sweet ones,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize,
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
And know that you're the best mom!"
Beautiful Angel.. so sorry for your sad loss ,Millie is Gorgeous :) xxxx
Oh Mother, my mother
Oh Mother, my mother
I touch your tears
invisible fingers
soothing your skin
I know you think of me so often
in the day, in the night,
in your dreams
going into an empty nursery
knowing I'll never be there
but I am...in your heart
in your soul, I shall always be
for you gave so unselfishly
of yourself.
Inside of you, you created
such a world for me
a world of laughter, of love
of sadness, or sorrow
every emotion people come to know
you shared with me.
And even though I may never
feel your arms around me
I felt your heart beating,
like a lullaby, singing me to sleep
and your spirit giving me a safe haven
already protecting me
nurturing me
preparing me of things to come.
But sometimes the journey
of life pulls souls apart
and yes, I had to go on
to another place.
I wish I could stay
I wish this was a decision
I could make
and I know you do too.
Know this wherever you are:
I will always remember
that yours was the first love
the first joy, the first soul
I will ever know
you gave me the courage to
go on in my journey
I hope I can do the same
for you
Your heart beat will always
call me to you.
Love, your child
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
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